whenever i think of you. whenever i think of you, a thousand tiny knives shred my body from the inside. you just should know i never thought of doing it just for the fun of it. i'm in pain. hope you're feeling better now.
here are the consequences of the post mortem post human existence we drag. pain pain endless pain moaning tears pain. how do you think do we live? are we together.
i'm touching your body over and over because i cant believe you're really here with me. i want to believe in your presence, but sometimes i am just unable to fix myself.
i know you feel just the same. bruises on my body are helping you remember. i see you staring at me, staring like a stupid...
... unable to get your eyes off of me, untill i get too uncomfortable, just
before the moment when your hand is punching me in the face.
now you do feel my presence around, my naked body close to yours, don't you. do you feel my breath on your ear, my tears on your face?
do you feel my softness, my limp hands curling around your neck, does it feel good? ahh touch me there i want you to enter me, share the night with me.
life is subjective. i am lifeless but i live. i love takin away life from those who enjoy life. you're subjective as well, my love, you exist in my mind just because I want so.
don't you see, i am a temple of you and you have to destroy me.. only if you destroy me, your earthly suffering will end, and you'll get to Hell you're so craving for.
and what about me... i would definitely survive. live through, step over, and annihilate. no I lie. you just don't know how much sorrow it brings when I can't find you around.
our home. i stay in our bed for days, resting my head on your pillow. i think it's so much softer, better than mine, and it smells of you. i dream of your hair entangled with mine, i crave for your fingers interlocked with mine. i try on your clothes, they nearly fit. i touch myself, i caress this body, every little spot your fingers had touched. and then i wake up the other day, and you're back right here, your cold body is laying in the bed beside me. and the pain is here too.